I’m watching this Hulu documentary called “Betrayal” and I’m absolutely horrified at Utah’s pedophile cops aiding and abetting their pedophile siblings. This shit is beyond the pale, and Jason Lytton only got less than a year. His brother, Justin, likely had the Prosecutors cycled out until his brother obtained a favorable plea deal. This is just absolutely disgusting. I’m so disgusted right now. I hope that fucker gets murdered by someone, honestly, both him and his brother. Fucking corrupt cops and pedophiles just helping each other out- This is the shit that internal investigations are supposed to curb, and how exactly did that Utah department clear Justin Lytton of any wrongdoing? Please do tell me, because he obviously intervened in his brother’s case.

These rat bastards. I swear. So, I’m not musically inclined in the least, I don’t know the notes of a piano or anything like that, so I get to rely entirely on technical prowess. The problem is the only tools I have in my toolbag for audio analysis are like twenty years old and are very rigid kinds of tools that are used for in-depth processing tasks where you know what the fuck you’re doing right away and you’re not a total dolt.

They’re anticipating another ‘peak capacity’ point for humanity around 2050 or so. I believe the prediction is based on agricultural practices and capacity. I’m not entirely certain about this, I only heard about it in passing. What I do know, though, is there will always be a breakthrough to enable us to chase these ambitions of growth and expansion. My only question is; what will the next breakthrough be? A few hundred years ago it was a chain of islands with thousands of years of bird guano being shipped globally to fertilize crops. After that, the Haber process enabled further population boom. I honestly can’t predict the next explosion, but honestly I think it might come in the form of commodity vertical farming. Cheap and effective vertical farming would easily alleviate a lot of issues with land utilization, and I think that was one of the expected barriers to further growth.

I decided to try out the Paramount+ “live stream” feature and found myself a “Indiana Jones” marathon, so I flipped it on. I’m watching the movie and Indy just crossed the threshold of the grail sanctum, and it just strikes me as to how absolutely moronic this “spirituality” thing really is.

People believe this shit. People live their whole lives committed to this lie. It’s wild to me. Then again, I also recently watched “The Contestant”, so I guess I’m not that shocked about what people will dedicate large portions of their lives to. Still though. This religion is a messy amalgam of about a hundred polytheistic practices bastardized and dumped into the form factor we know today as “Christianity”. What makes it even worse is that the bible is a cumbersome and ancient text with a lot of problems. It remains willfully ignorant of things like homosexuality, chromosomal aberration, and medicine on the whole. I get it. I really do. How could these goat-fucking Shepards have ever conceived of a future where people stare into all-knowing glass bricks that connect them instantly with any locale on the planet? Obviously they never saw it coming. Had no notion of DNA or really knowledge at large, and honestly the bible goes pretty far in condemning knowledge. In fact, the only fictional character in the entire bible who is even remotely curious about how the world works is Satan. This goes far in explaining why Satanism has always been an option for people who are disgusted by christianity. If you have enough brain cells, you likely will seek damn near any alternative.

Well, it’s a new year. Time for new mistakes, new regrets; lets just wrap the whole shebang into one awful pill and do the old “hard swallow”!

Not really sure what I had planned for this post, if anything. Honestly I don’t think I had an idea of what I wanted to say today. I guess it doesn’t matter all that much. Does it ever really matter? I write and I write and the world is still a shithole. Kinda like how cops work every day and the world is still a shithole. Lawyers work every day and the world is still fucked. Maybe those roles don’t actually make any impact, eh? That’s really the only thing I can discern from such phenomena.

Bought a few bags of “live rosin” and “full spectrum” gummies today, mostly just to see what the hype is around them. First I can say that live rosin doesn’t do flavor any favors. It tastes like someone softened a cannabis plant stalk and that’s what I’m chewing on. The flavor is basically spot on for grass. It’s unsuppressible. No fruit additives or artificial flavors can tame the freshly mowed lawn in your mouth when you’re eating these damn things. Sure, regular ass cheap gummies have a hint of planty taste, but they still pack enough wallop to get you where you want to be. These live rosin gummies seem to be delayed onset, comparatively, and don’t seem to be as potent. It’s almost as if the CBD/CBG/CBN and other endocannabinoids aren’t doing much outside of suppressing the bare THC you’re hoping to feel. I’m glad we have variety. I’m glad we have choice. I’m also glad the everyman is controlling the market and the hipsters are relegated to snooty expensive bullshit that’s really subpar. You hipsters can have all this bullshit “live rosin”, it’s honestly only good for dabs. And even then, it usually isn’t worth the extra cost.

We’ve reached a new peak in the class war. Elon Musk and Vivek Ramaswamy have thrown down and stated that they “need” H-1B visas because Americans are just retarded. Not my words. Theirs. Damn near verbatim.

Here’s my problem with this. They’re liars. They’re enormous fucking liars, and the reason they are compelled to hire H-1B visa holders is because they not only pay their salaries, but the H-1B visa holder has extra incentive to obey because they’ll be shipped back to their home country if they don’t play ball. Great way to prevent whole groups from unionizing. This is the modern equivalent to the Chicago Stockyards. There will be violence, and I don’t know if Musk is quite ready for that. There was violence then, too. It was the reason things changed. The violence ended corporate hegemony (such as scrip and corporate housing) and ushered in a new era of labor relations(unions and labor protections).

There are two things about myself that I hate. Two things I actively try to change or compensate for. I hate my pessimism, and I hate my rigidity. I’ve actually made some amount of progress on my rigidity. I’ve exposed myself to more things, new ideas, I’ve made actual progress against rigidity. It’s slow going, but it’s progress. Honestly, drugs have helped on that front. Weed makes me pretty chill, enough so to “go with the flow”. The pessimism, though- That’s been a far harder nut to crack. It drives me up a fucking wall, though. It really does. There are aspects of it that maybe are beneficial, but overall it goes over about as well as cement shoes in the open ocean. Some days I can’t determine which came first: the disappointment or the pessimism. And yet it’s truly a crutch. It’s something to lean on when you invest in something and don’t expect much in return. It drives me absolutely insane, though. What’s worse is that I don’t know how to improve it when statistically, it isn’t wrong. Stats are literally where pessimism lives. I guess if you deal in macabre numbers it stands to reason you’ll see macabre results. I don’t know. It drives me absolutely apeshit, though. I don’t know how to change it. Even when I want to change it, and I ask someone how to change it, I feel like the people telling me what to do are just feeding me bullshit. It’s crushing to feel this way most of the time. The weight of the burden is immense. I don’t know how to shed myself of it, and the closest I’ve ever gotten is smoking it away.