I’ve watched “#prosec” and “Anonymous”, and all the douchebags in between, from a distance. It’s hilarious. Having formerly kept up to date with these people, I can tell you that it’s entirely similar watching from afar as it is being involved with communication. It’s all drama. Relentless, redundant, retarded drama. “OMG YOU PICKED A FIGHT WITH SOMEONE I LIKE SO I’M GONNA HACK EVERY MACHINE YOU HAVE BECAUSE I DONT LIEK U”. It’s kindergarten, sans kindergarten teacher. The breakdown is just as hilarious.

I have business to tend to. Things are coming at me rapidly, and I’m already overburdened with tasks and no time in which to deal with them. Ditching this blog, facebook, and the internet on the whole, is pretty much all I can do to squeeze the little time I have and make it work for me. So that’s what I’ll be doing. Can’t keep it up forever, sometimes life just gets in the way of hobbies. It happens.

Working feels good. I fucking love being employed. I almost never like the tasks I’m charged with, but feeling like a productive member of society and enjoying the perks of this status is a deep requirement for me to feel like a whole person. It’s more than satisfying in a lot of ways, because being an adult is satisfying. No one tells you what to do, you simply commit to actions that will have the best outcomes for whatever it is you’re trying to achieve. I would never go back to being a kid, I don’t take adulthood for granted at all. Yes, it’s hard. It’s always hard, all the time. Sometimes to the point of making me feel like I’ll break under the pressure. But I’ve become accustomed to it, I use that pressure to feed into my actions and give me energy.

Tonight is the first night I start working again in over a year. I really think people have assumed I’m “on vacation”. That perhaps I’m not exactly “looking hard” for work or that I’m flat out not looking. The stark reality here is that the jobs simply don’t exist. It’s hard to see that unless you’re jobless and struggling, in which case you probably aren’t involving yourself with others all that much and you’re overly involved in your own search for gainful employment. No, I’ve been looking hard for a long time now, not just for jobs that pay the same rate I was making before- but anything. I applied to anything and everything that came my way. Any employer that claimed to be hiring. Anywhere, anyone, for anything- I applied and heard nothing back. I have more rejection emails than I can count. Barack Obama is being lauded now for adding jobs to a forlorn nation. The sad reality is that the jobs being added cannot sustain this country. The government is despotic, I’ve realized that sooner rather than later, and corporations are at the masthead.