I’m having a hell of a time maintaining my motivation. I’m learning new things, I’m honing old skills and developing new ones, I’m restructuring my entire “professional” existence. I’m doing big things, small things, all the things.

I dunno, I’m just petering out. I’ve been working 60+ hours for a few weeks now, and I’m burned out quite severely. I need a beer and a day with zero obligations. I need to sleep more than six hours. I know all of what I need. I’m also painfully aware of how scarce my needs really are. Life doesn’t work that way. It’s not so simple.

I’m wearing down pretty quickly. Mandatory overtime isn’t enjoyable. It’s coming at me steady and fast. I’m told I’ll have help. I’m told they’ll hire another person. That extra help never comes. Nothing gets easier. I just fall further behind. It’s tiring. I’m bored with it. I’m ready to move on to bigger and better things. I’m ready to get my life moving in a direction I want it to move.