Slowly but surely, I’m realizing that I’m important. I deserve to be happy. I deserve to have people in my life that care. I’m above begging for responses. I’m above begging for human decency. I’m above begging for clarity. I’m above begging for kindness and compassion. People that can’t offer those bare minimums can absolutely get the fuck out of my life and stay the fuck out of my life, they aren’t deserving of my time or attention. I already have so many people in my life that don’t make me beg for the bare minimums, but give me those bare minimums just because I’m worth being cared about. I care just as much about them, and for the first time in a long time I’m beginning to understand healthy relationships. This new year is going to be the best year, I’m going to do everything I can to ensure that it will be. I’m going to make the best life I can for myself, for my kids, and for my friends and family. I am loved, and I started with loving myself.

Today is a good day. Today is a new lease on life, a new start, a rebirth. Today is the day I begin taking back my own destiny. I’ve found myself with a ton of extra free time, and a friend of mine made a few suggestions that I think I’ll take. “Start prepping meals for the week. Start working out. Get a personal trainer. Work on yourself.” He’s not wrong. I’m too old to neglect my health. I’m not getting a personal trainer, that’s beyond my financial reach at the moment, but I have a fitness room I can access at my apartment complex. I can eat healther, I’m already dropping weight. I’m going to take control of my health, since I have time to take control of it. I’m also taking better care of my living environment. I’m picking up extra hours at work. All the while, I’m still able to treat my kids like the amazing little humans they are.

Heh. I dunno. Just thought this video was good.

I think I’m going to start blogging semi-regularly, both to get shit off my chest and maybe, on occasion, share some knowledge. I need an outlet for the garbage banging around in my tiny, mostly empty skull. I suppose I have a few bits of advice for anyone living in the digital age. There are a few choice pieces up here already, but I’ll admit that in the time since I’ve written stuff here, my skills have improved a bit.

Alright, I might’ve worked the kinks out of this new setup. Using “Unison”, syncing between my Debian VPS and home Win7 main station.

Keep your eyes peeled.

It would seem that the old blog has suffered a minor setback. A few, I suppose. One, I’m not exactly in a permanent residence at the moment, so I don’t have all my hardware at my disposal. Two, my VPS provider took a shit on my slice and lost all my data (thanks, gais). Three, the most recent backup I have to work with isn’t all that recent.

In any case, let me know if you have any difficulty with this freaking blog. I haven’t run jekyll on Windows before. This is my first go. It’s a pain to update without rsync. Makes me want to kick puppies.