I’ve been spinning my wheels on this goddamn blog for years now. Basically since it began, if we’re being honest about it. I need to figure out what the hell I want to do with it.

Not gonna lie, but I’m pretty damned excited to have a stretch of four days off. We’re probably even going to leave early as shit today, once we do a little work. It’s going to be goddamned stellar for sure. Absolutely nothing can piss in my cheerios, god dammit. I’m excited. EXCITED!

THIS. WILL. BE. AWFOM.

In the last six years I’ve gradually noticed something that has really taken me by surprise. It’s something I’ve rehashed and reviewed in my mind over and over to validate and analyze. But one thing is clear; It’s not familiar to me nor is it something I’ve had for much of my life. But I can’t deny it. I can’t ignore it or pretend it’s not real or not there. Like an eight hundred pound gorilla in the corner; it’s unmistakable.

I can’t even begin to elaborate on how annoyed I am with Apple’s iPhone design choices. Fucking really? We’re segregating storage now? I’m sure Tim Apple will cry about virus threats and blah blah as motivation for this garbage, but we all know he eventually just wants to offload every phone OS to the cloud, so that way he has ultimate control over every single unit sold. Jailbreakers won’t even exist at that point. Phones won’t have storage outside of RAM. What a shitty future. I hope society at large rejects this future. It’s a bleak one, where heated seats are installed in every car but you have to “unlock” them with a subscription.

I think I really like this editor, it’s quite nice, though it’s crazy irritating that I can’t figure out how to disable autocomplete fully for markdown files. It’ll stop sending “AI” requests when I tell it to, but the baseline word prediction for markdown files is just honestly moronic at best, and it should be something you should be able to disable if you get annoyed easily seeing stupid words with no relation popping up every time you fucking type.

It sounds like we have a fun weekend in Chicago planned. We’re going to hit the natural history museum and Shedd aquarium, which are both awesome places to visit when you’re in the city. It’ll be exciting to do those things and visit the kids, hopefully they’re able to peel off from work to do some of these things with us. Chicago is always a good time.

I’ve been having to get up every day at five in the morning, though. It’s been pretty goddamn rough if I’m being honest, and I know what’s going to end up happening this weekend. I’m inevitably going to be wide awake at 7am at the latest every day, and that’s probably going to annoy everyone in our group. But I can’t fucking help it, this is what I’ve been having to do. I can’t change when I feel dead ass tired or how early I wake up because I’ve been basically trained to this schedule- and it runs deep now. There’s very little variation on the theme, so it’s been so concretely reinforced that I can’t do a goddamn thing to influence it. I can even sleep through redbull at this point if it’s late enough. I think it would take a lot to disrupt my schedule currently.

The three day weekend was quite nice. I feel more rested, more recharged, more capable of dealing with the onslaught of crap I wouldn’t be bothered with if I wasn’t getting paid. Just read my “instadose” and I think it could be defective. I haven’t read data from it since I got it many months ago and it reported exposures of “zero”. That doesn’t seem right given that background x-rays are non-zero. Dunno. Maybe I’m wrong. Maybe it’s fine. But this is the sort of tedious shit that occupies most of my days.

I am tired as hell. Not gonna lie. There’s always so much going on, and yet, sometimes it feels like there’s nothing going on. What a weird mix.