Work seems like a mess right now, and not just for me. Everyone is having an interesting time. It seems like the only profession not being invaded mercilessly by OpenAI are professions where crude labor are employed. No real thought involved, or at least not much, just mostly physical action. Whatever physical action hasn’t been replaced by machines or robots. The ways in which it’s impacting me aren’t substantial yet, but I’m sure that’s heading our way rather quickly, for better or worse.

My ex is also spreading vicious lies about me being abusive, and she’s very public and loud about it. The reality is that she has treatment resistant borderline personality disorder and absolutely refuses to do CBT or DBT workbooks. It’s obvious she refuses because they discourage lying, manipulating, and gaslighting, and she’s very much still doing all of those things. She’s obviously not someone who can be trusted, and anyone who does give her any trust is a fool at best. I’m sure she has cheated on her husband already. My son has already told me about getting mad at her for telling him that a coworker she’s ferrying to work might be “his new step dad”. My son isn’t an asshole, he’s already invested emotionally in his step dad, even though the guy is a huge asshole and doesn’t treat him well. But no, I was never abusive to my ex, not at all. Was I toxic? Asbolutely. I was terrified that BPD is something you can “catch” from someone forcing you into a corner with their emotional dysregulation. I was overly worried that I had permanently become a toxic piece of shit because of having this eight year relationship with an incredibly toxic person. Many therapists have assured me that that is unlikely at best, and I’ve read plenty of similar testimonies on support groups online.

My ex is a serial cheater. She’s absolutely cheated on everyone she’s ever been in a relationship with, and I really doubt that has changed since we broke up. Especially considering her complete resistance to treatment.

At least I can laugh at the fact that she has gained tremendous amounts of weight and looks like crap. She even split her tongue to resemble a snake. I mean, if that’s not borderline I don’t know what is. “LOOK AT MEEEEEE!”