I don’t like when projects land in my lap that go through a full gamut of emotions in the span of one or two days. From elation to terror to absolute despair, then full circle once more for good measure, in forty-eight hours- This is less than optimal. It’s also incredibly telling that these people who are trying to tell me how difficult or easy my job of contributing will be have no real clue about what I’m bringing to the table. I can’t tell if they’re over or underestimating me at this point, but I’ve raised some serious doubts, only to have other members from other teams and other companies that are a party to the nonsense raise similar concerns. Now they’re suddenly quite reflexive in anticipating all of these things I’ve already broached on the outset.

God damn.