I’m pretty sure I’ve peaked. Everything I was going to accomplish in my life as far as technology and science, I’ve already achieved. When it comes to learning, programming, and electronics- It’s all downhill from here. That’s it, show’s over. I think a huge portion of the reason for this lies in my job. Every job I’ve had prior to this one has demanded nothing of me intellectually. In order to cope with a need for stimulation, I sat down and learned everything I could about computers, electronics, networking. Now that I get this “stimulation” elsewhere, in fact regularly it’s demanded of me, I find myself not seeking those endeavors anymore. I don’t tinker. I haven’t learned anything new or substantial in over a year. My desire for self improvement is all but gone. It’s a crisis of sorts, and I really don’t know where to go from here.

It sucks, too. The feeling you get when you learn something new, fail a few times, and then succeed- it really can’t be supplanted by many other things. It’s an amazing feeling. It’s also an incredible loss to go without it for extended periods. I don’t really know what to do about it, or how to kick start it again, or what I could even learn next assuming I find my missing drive.

Oh well.