Before I met Amber I never expected to get married again. No joke, I really thought I’d just solo the rest of my life or just at most have a “life partner” that’s close but I’m not legally attached to, because it was a terrifying thought to be legally attached to pretty much anyone.

Then I met Amber, and she’s my life partner. She’s it. She’s my ride or die, and now she’s my wife.

I love you, my wife. More! ❤️

Yes, another stupid “proof of life” post. I guess because I’ve been stupid busy. I’ve been an engineer for ten years now. It’s weird how it simultaneously feels like forever and only a short while. I honestly can’t explain it very well. I guess you could say I’ve found my groove. I was recently promoted somewhat. Our engineering team is tiered based on experience, and I recently attained the highest level an engineer can hold at my company. It’s a nice feeling, but it’s also sort of anxiety inducing. Is this it? Is this the highest I can go? I dunno. I guess I should worry less about that and more about treading water at my current level. I have a lot to be grateful for. My life is a charmed one, honestly. I don’t punch a clock. I have endless computers and gadgets to entertain me. I don’t get hassled about working from home. I have a good amount of freedom at work. I have a wonderful marriage and the best wife in the universe. I get to spend every day with my best friend. I like that as I add things to the list they only get more amazing. I’m at a point in life where I could complain, but even I would be critical of the whining. It’s so unnecessary. I’m at a point in life where I don’t travel as much as I used to for work. The heavy work travel used to serve a purpose for me. It got me out of a chaotic household. But now the home I have is my sanctuary. It’s the center of my peace in life. Traveling for work serves only to disrupt my peace nowadays, and I’m grateful that sometimes I get to take my wife with me. I never imagined I would have a life like this one day. I never realized my best friend was just out there waiting for me to drop into her life so we could be a team and make our dreams come true together. Honestly, if you’re wondering why I don’t write much, it’s because I’ve always used writing to cope with negative thoughts or feelings. It was something introduced to me early on in life when my dad died, and counselors were teaching me ways to cope with hardships in life. Writing became my favorite and sometimes only outlet. It was only ever really therapeutic to write away the negativity, so most of my writing had been little other than a dump of the negativity I needed to shed in life. I just don’t have that negativity in my life anymore. I’m free of pretty much every absurdity that was ever foisted upon me. So that’s the big reason my writing has tapered to almost nothing. I have to force myself to write about the good, because I don’t have a problem with the good. I don’t need to release it onto some page to lift the volume and heaviness from my heart and dole it out to the page. That’s not to say my life is perfect, no life is perfect. I could stand to win the Powerball at some point. I guess that would be perfection for me. Give me an early retirement and I’d never be able to complain again. Well, I think I have sat here staring at the next line long enough. I really can’t think of anything more to say. Life is good. Life is great, honestly. What more is there to say?

If you’re like me, you’re just a smidge OCD about your seedbox. You might even run one on your own home network. Yeah yeah, I know the risks. Blah blah. Anyways, I’ve been running my own on a mac mini with a 12TB external plugged into it, and I mostly use it headless. It’s been rocking awesome for five years now. However, I’ve sometimes had issues with rtorrent stability from time to time. That said, I finally got sick of it and decided to leverage the obscure dark arts of launchd. It’s not superbly documented, I can barely find much of use on the internet about it, and what little I can find doesn’t exactly shine a bright light on this black box tool.

Well goddamn. Finally installed NixOS. It is incredibly autistic. Wildly autistic. This fucking OS is feral. It’s hate-fapping in a corner with a fist that has a bunch of lego pieces glued to it.

That said, I really like it. There’s a distinct amount of granular control in having your entire operating system defined by one or two scripts. Atomic updates are also pretty fuckin cool. The immutability makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside.

I’ve been playing a lot of Cyberpunk 2077 lately. I’ve owned the game for a long damn time, but I haven’t really gotten into it until recently. I know part of that was waiting for game-breaking bugs to get squashed, which largely seems to be the case for the current state it’s in. Another part was just that I didn’t get into it quickly. I never get into any game quickly, honestly. I have to just wade in gently until it really grabs me. I wound up finding out that Cyberpunk is really just a Borderlands clone with a Shadowrun backdrop and that honestly is right up my alley. So I’ve been playinng the hell out of it lately.

We’re back from Hawaii and I have successfully knocked out a whole ass work day. It was really “touch and go” there for a minute, but I struggled through the typical Monday fog and banged out the whole list of tasks the customer needed done. I guess I also receieved some praise while we were gone. All in all not the worst day ever. Maybe not the easiest, but not the worst by far.

I’ve been daily driving CachyOS for a couple weeks now and I have to say that I fucking love it. KDE Plasma is a decent enough WM. The only thing that annoys me is that most of the terminal emulators suck balls. Alacritty just condescends to the user by saying “you don’t deserve ligatures because no one has written a good implementation yet”. Pretty much all of the other ones are just vibecoded nonsense or are buggy as fuck. If anyone has a decent recommendation for a terminal emulator, I’m definitely taking suggestions.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MY WIFE! WE’RE GOING TO HAWAII, FUCK YEAH.