Sleep Paralysis

Listen to this. It’s good shit.

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28 Apr 2020 14:35 | music


It’s funny to me how Republicans “spin” their narrative. “The State”, “The Fed”, nearly any entity aside from a corporate monopoly is viewed as an oppressive body. The narrative gets spun out to look enticing to people who are unfamiliar with their own financial burdens. It lines up completely with the self-oppressing Christian mentality. “I saddled myself with my own woes. I’m my own worst enemy. It’s my fault that I am where I am.” They also, to some minor extent, feel like they’re masters of their own destiny. And minor it is. They have some sway in their own story, but there’s far greater propensity for a fall than there is any sort of rise. Any minor misstep can catapult one of these people into an even more severe poverty than they’re already experiencing. Their station in life is as a footstool for the wealthy. We’re all assigned that role, but they absolutely love it. They don’t even see their own role as being one of “footstool”, but as a “foundational contributor to capitalism”, which is very far from any truth. The narratives spun are crafted in such a way that everyone making less than $250k annually supports all US infrastructure, rather than the 50,000 or so millionaires or billionaires sitting on hoarded wealth. The sad reality is that the Republican spin is an incredibly intuitive story used to rope in 200 million voters to support fifty thousand rich assholes.

At the end of the day, it only makes sense to eat the rich.

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17 Apr 2020 10:46 | politics


I’m currently not sure what I should write about. I get that I’m writing this at the moment, but I mean I do intend to write something substantial about computing, programming, or maybe maths. I dunno. I’m still kinda figuring that out. Until then I’m just doing the “one million monkeys sitting in front of one million typewriters” thing.

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16 Apr 2020 10:45 | coronavirus, rant, quarantine


I can’t even adequately describe my frustration right now. It’s immense. It’s YUGE. I guess I’ll try to describe exactly why it exists, and why I don’t foresee it improving at all in the next year or so.

First and foremost, qurantine is tough. It’s not the best thing I’ve ever experienced, and a lot of “gamers” are making jokes about quarantine being neutral buoyancy. I get it. Most game and computer enthusiasts stay indoors for long stretches. If they leave, it’s begrudgingly. I understand the stereotype. I spent a while proving it to be true. There’s just some radical exception to that rule when you’re told that you can’t leave. Suddenly the desire for something previously undesirable grows exponentially.

Layering on top of this the present “social distancing” restrictions, we have lunatics on the political right making everything worse. They’re spreading the usual retarded garbage with even greater fervor. It’s irritating because they’re the reason we’re in this situation. They’re the ones that wanted a smaller federal government that’s wholly incapable of doing things a federal government is supposed to do. This is proof that everything they hold dear is just bullshit. So that’s strike two.

When you post facts on the internet, would a Republican absorb them if their eyes accidentally stumbled in their direction? The answer is; Fucking of course not. Facts, wisdom, science; These are all the antithesis of the “working class Republican”. The truth is that “the working class Republican” is little more than an inbred hillbilly trope, because he’s not supporting himself or values he actually holds, he’s swallowing propaganda that was fed to him by wealthy corporate stooges who have clear incentive to make their policies popular. That’s right, working class Republicans are mentally deficient. They vote against their own self interest year after year, believing they’re “doing their part” in fulfilling the American Dream. Which, they are, just not their own dream. They’re fulfilling the dreams of the wealthiest people who inherited their wealth, who will be secure in passing their wealth to their offsrping. Generation after generation of trust-fund children. That’s who the “working class Republican” is truly voting for. And they’re too stupid to see it, which makes them all the more valuable to the malevolent “Republican Party Orchaestrators”.

Do I exempt Democrats from my seething opinions? Of course not. They’re largely structured similarly to the Republicans, except instead of promoting “cunty bullshit” like “Hate thy neighbor” or “Fuck your kid’s lives I want my automatic”; The Democrats push social change in exchange for doggedly promoting the current immense gap between the haves and the have-nots. The Republicans, as I mentioned earlier, are also assholes like this. The difference is that they want all the gays to go away and “stop rubbing it in people’s faces”, they want women to get the fuck back in the kitchen, they want Mexicans to die in a fire, they want a return to 1950’s “moral tradition”. Because, deep down, they’re garbage human beings. You can call that a harsh indictment if you’d like to, but I bet you’d be hard pressed to disagree whether it’s accurate or not.

With the quarantine, I’m forced to observe all of this in real-time on Facebook.

Cue misanthropy.

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15 Apr 2020 10:25 | coronavirus, rant, quarantine, frustration

All Work and no Play

I think sitting around all day and having nothing to do with the outdoors in any capacity might be causing all of us some substantial mental harm. Though, the alternative being putting those at-risk in danger may be a greater evil than just sitting around all day. I don’t know. I don’t have all the answers.

I do kind of want to just rip it off, like a band-aid. Just get back out there and continue doing business as usual. It’s starting to wear on me. It’s making me more bitter. I’m less tolerant of people who fail to think things through. I’m less tolerant of people in general. I’m not doing awesome with staying inside all day, every day. I need to find something to break my day up. I’ve been taking a lot of vacation days to just decompress, but I don’t think it’s as effective as I’d like it to be. Maybe I’ll work more. Just get more done with the tasks I have set before me. I dunno. You can tell I’m losing my mind when working more is on the table.

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14 Apr 2020 12:00 | coronavirus, rant, quarantine