I'm Married!

Before I met Amber I never expected to get married again. No joke, I really thought I’d just solo the rest of my life or just at most have a “life partner” that’s close but I’m not legally attached to, because it was a terrifying thought to be legally attached to pretty much anyone.

Then I met Amber, and she’s my life partner. She’s it. She’s my ride or die, and now she’s my wife.

I love you, my wife. More! ❤️

Borderline Problems

The borderline ex is being an asshole again. She’s been manipulating our son and trying to get him to “keep secrets” because she knows she’s a half-ass mother. She’s also getting called out on it and now being an asshole publicly about my wife. This from someone whose gut is so large she can’t keep her navel clean enough to stop it from weeping with infection. This from someone who had her tongue split.

Finally

For the first time in my entire lifetime, I have a partner. I have a real actual partner who is absolutely my better. A partner whom I’m proud to call my partner and brag about and publicly affectionate with and I can be happy for the rest of my life to be with. I’ve always wanted to have that with someone, for someone to be that for me and have that from me as well.

Something Techy

I think I’m going to write about something at least tech related, soon. I know I’ve probably said that about a million times at this point, but I think I might be kind of serious. I’m considering maybe learning NixOS or ProxMox or something interesting and new, and then documenting things I can’t just easily “google” and putting the information up here so that it’s still available. I like to do that, to fill in gaps of knowledge wherever possible, but it’s not always possible.

Boredom

Christ almighty, I’m so fucking bored right now. I’m stuck in fucking Colorado in a hotel with a broken ass TV and fuck all to do, because the Colorado weed scene is pathetic compared to home and I am not a fan of the outdoors. I’m going to go insane from boredom. Worse yet, I have to travel for work all week next week, so I get to be trapped in a fucking hotel room all next fucking week, too.

Gallimaufry

It’s been a minute since I’ve updated. I figured since I have what feels like many hours free to dedicate to whatever the hell I feel like, I might as well update this old damn thing. At this point I’m going to have to keep this fucking thing up forever. I guess that’s not a bad thing, it’s honestly very therapeutic. I am deathly afraid of being such an awful person that my kids cut me off and never speak to me again when they become adults.

Stoned

Man, a dispensary I use frequently has edibles on sale $3.50 for a 10 pack of 200mg. Fucking insane prices. I remember when I was a teenager and I got bunk weed for like $30. Modern weed where I live puts the shit I used to get to shame tenfold and then some. It’s ridiculous. The low cost of edibles is the reason my tolerance went absolutely apeshit in the first place.

Grateful

Today is the anniversary of an event I’m incredibly grateful for. Today marks four years since my first date with my wife. It was today that I was given the opportunity to feel partnership and trust for the first time in my life. I know this is a short one, but I still felt I needed to express it. I love my wife, she’s my partner for life.

Rest in Peace Rick and Morty

I started watching season seven of Rick and Morty and it began pretty painfully. None of what had been established as “Rick and Morty” staples were present in the first eight minutes, which is wild. In the first six seasons you can pretty easily detect pretty telling story arcs that betray who was involved in writing them. Any of that was entirely missing from the first episode of season seven, and I’m pretty sad about it.

Jewish Tunnels

The news cycle has been wild lately. I guess the biggest recent takeaway is that Chabad Jews are fucking weird. Like really weird. I guess the weirdness of the story has far right pundits going mad. Like they’re foaming at the mouth about this mattress and high chair found in the “illegal tunnel”. Man, I don’t know. It’s not weird to find garbage laying around random places and it easily could’ve just been shit drug in by a homeless person.

November

Am I the only one nervous about this coming November? There are tens of millions of brainwashed cult members actively advocating for the suspension of western democracy in hopes of installing their demagogue either by slander campaigns or likely just more seditious activity. Worse yet it seems like the intelligence community is “on the fence” as far as preventing this bullshit from taking place. They’re not doing anything about it. I know they’re not doing anything about it because they literally have the keys to the kingdom.

Ponderance

I just survived a rather gross viral incident that caused my sinus cavity to generate mucous like a torrential downpour. I was coughing up large green chunks by tens of milliliters every day for a solid week, and the stuff coming out of my nose wasn’t any sort of picnic either. It spread through the whole house from person to person for the last month or so. It’s been a pretty disgusting event, really, involving a lot of booger rags.

This Detail Is Important

“Rather than vindicating our constitutional framework, the defendant’s sweeping immunity claim threatens to license presidents to commit crimes to remain in office. The founders did not intend and would never have countenanced such a result.” This is exactly true. By enabling a Cult of Personality around Trump, his followers are enticing him to become the next Xi Jinping, Vladimir Putin, or Kim Jong Un. This is a horrifying precedent that they’re trying to set that was clearly predicted by Margaret Atwood in her novel “Handmaid’s Tale”.

ACAB

ACAB: Because good people do not choose to be cops. I swear to fucking God, these power-tripping psychotic pigs really need to calm the fuck down. The United States is rife with ridiculous speed traps and these pigs just waiting to catch someone going 35 in a school zone just so they can masturbate to their own perceived authority. It’s pretty sickening. At least in Germany they just set up cameras.

The Occult

One of my favorite vices happens to be reading about the occult. As a staunch atheist, perhaps it’s a morbid preoccupation. I don’t believe a single word of it, but I do find it fascinating. Honestly, a lot of the occult are systems of beliefs that had to “go underground” as a result of the oppressive regime of early growing Christianity. In short, Christianity sent underground the very thing they sought to eliminate completely.

Partnership

I have a lot to be grateful for this season. I have wonderful kids. I have a wonderful family. I also have the best partner in the world. It is amazing to me that I’ve gone so long without knowing what partnership really is. I just “rolled with the punches” through a number of pretty abusive situations and just thought that I was really awful enough to deserve those situations. My wife is my rock.

Python

Man, I installed Python and Jupyter Notebook and I have to say, it’s cool as shit. I’ve been just banging out stupid little “nothing” snippets of code and playing around to just do simple calculations. It’s very cool stuff. I love the fact that it’s near-native speed and wildly easy to program. It feels very gratifying to learn something that I can just apply casually to make getting stuff done easier.

Baggage

I want to write about positive things in my life. I want to write about exciting things only days away. I want to write about all the good things, but honestly I’ve used writing as a coping mechanism for so long that I don’t think it’s possible for me to write down anything other than what’s currently troubling me at any given moment. It sucks, but it could be worse. At least I have a coping mechanism.

Diluted

Man, kids say the darnedest things. Like, you can’t stop a kid from talking endlessly about virtually anything they encounter on a daily basis. I guess it’s not really anything to give a second thought to, but I guess it would give someone pause if they’re not doing what they’re supposed to be doing. I really need these four days off. Not gonna lie. Things feel like they’re ramping up really quickly and I haven’t even started the new role yet.

Time Off

I can’t wait for the four day weekend. I really need some time to de-stress and just relax a bit. Things have been pretty crazy lately. My wife and I, we’ve been pretty busy. It seems like we’re going to have to give ourselves a time out here shortly. I think the four day weekend will be a decent time out for me. Man, I really have fallen off on writing.

DUI

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NDA

I don’t like when projects land in my lap that go through a full gamut of emotions in the span of one or two days. From elation to terror to absolute despair, then full circle once more for good measure, in forty-eight hours- This is less than optimal. It’s also incredibly telling that these people who are trying to tell me how difficult or easy my job of contributing will be have no real clue about what I’m bringing to the table.

ComfyUI With ControlNets

So the first thing you do is a git clone https://github.com/comfyanonymous/ComfyUI. Then cd ComfyUI/custom_nodes. Then issue git clone https://github.com/ltdrdata/ComfyUI-Manager. Last thing to do, navigate to ComfyUI again and issue pip install -r requirements.txt. So I’m skipping some of the PyTorch stuff and that’s important and all, but this is just a real condensed summary that you’re going to have to fill the gaps of. Sorry. I might be too stoned to do a proper doc on it, but it’ll get you pointed in the right direction.

Ruby Franke

I do recommend everyone take a look at the Ruby Franke documentary on Hulu. It’s something I wrote about a while ago. It’s not surprising, the horrors uncovered. I hope Ruby Franke and Jodi Hildebrandt are ruined for the rest of their lives, if they don’t get to rot in a cell for the rest of their lives. These fucking Mormons are awful. Fuck them.

Permission

No one gets unlimited license to hurt your feelings and then tell you that you’re wrong for having them. Especially not when it’s blatantly obvious and is directly observed by many close people. I reserve the right to remove myself from those situations. No one should ever feel as though they have to continually subject themselves to that gaslighting bullshit. No one should ever have to constantly feel like they’re walking on eggshells, just waiting for the other shoe to drop yet again because you’re as predictable as a fucking clock.

Permanently Disable Nest Rush Hour Rewards Spam

This has been annoying me a shitload lately. I’ve been getting “Rush Hour Rewards” spam from my Nest thermostat, and I can find zero help anywhere officially from Google. It looks like it’s based on address, though, so Google “officially” recommends you simply ask to be “de-listed” from your local energy provider’s spam. This, to me, is a ridiculous solution that requires an equally ridiculous rebuttal. So here’s what we’re going to do: